A few weeks ago I spoke at Graystone Church about trusting God in difficult times. I took an illustration from Sam Chand’s book, Leadership Pain, where he describes the hard season a person is going through is like being in a dark hallway…with no open door in sight.
I ran out of time that Sunday and didn’t get to share the section of my message detailing some of the lessons I learned in the hallway so I am going to take a few posts and share them one at a time.
The first one is this: There are lessons to learn in the hallway that cannot be learned anywhere else. I wish so badly that I didn’t have to go through the terrible season of loss and confusion to learn what God taught me. But the reality for me was the darkness gave me reason to truly search for God. Many days the searching seemed futile. My situation wasn’t getting any better. In fact, it got a lot worse before it ever began to get any better. My heart was broken in a million little pieces and I didn’t know how long it would take for God to put it back together, It took hard work and discipline to continue the search for meaning and truth in the darkness.
It also took faith. And not a weak, fair-weather type of faith. The type of faith that believes even when all hope is gone. I thank God that my parents and UBC church family poured so much of God’s word into me in my growing up years. I believe this foundation encouraged me to have unshakeable faith during a season that was very dark.
I can look back now and see that God was preparing me for a new season of ministry and I am just now getting a taste of all that He has in store for me. It is precious and worth every tear, lonely night and shattered dream I experienced.
If you haven’t read Beth Moore’s new story book, Once Upon a Story, it is so worth the read. Here is an excerpt that melted my heart and gives me so much courage.
“I knew what you’d lose, I knew who you’d lose, I knew when you’d lose. I also knew what you would win if you found me in all you’d lose.
I saw a fighter in you when you saw a coward in your mirror. I saw the soul I fashioned within you. And I knew that who you thought you were was not the real you.
I made no coward. I made no mistake.
The woman I fashioned in her mother’s womb was fierce. She was enduring and believing. She possessed the capacity to love when other hearts would have long ago collapsed.
She had it in her to love fiercely. And bravely. To come back to her feet after battles that would leave her broken, and bruised and bloody. “
So this morning and in this new season, I am thankful when I look back on the time spent in the Hallway. Precious moments were spent with Jesus and as he bottled up my tears, he also put my heart back together. Piece by piece.
My encouragement to you this morning is to give it all to Jesus. And do not let today’s circumstances crumble your faith. Keep leaning on Jesus.
Much love~